: a defense especially of one’s opinions, position, or actions
About seven years before I began writing Justice, A Two Sons Diptych, I embarked upon a depth of study I had never experienced before. My study was precipitated by reading a work by George MacDonald called Justice in his Unspoken Sermons series. Through it, I was sent on a safari through Biblical writings in a chronological pattern. My goal was to assimilate the revelation of God’s plan of salvation as the bare scriptures themselves express, line upon line, precept upon precept, chronologically from Adam to the Apostles.
At the very time my heart was turned toward this safari, my family was plunged into a very dark season. Over a six month period I saw the death of my dear grandmother and a beloved great aunt; my father and my husband’s father each died suddenly. During the same time period my married daughter endured the rupture of a tubal pregnancy resulting in her near death and the death of our unborn grandchild. Simultaneously, our covenant church, which my husband pastors, was going through a very difficult conflict resolution involving many families.
Grief has very complicated effects. I began having severe heart arrhythmia resulting in extreme weakness. I was confined to bed most of one summer. It was several years before my strength returned.
My physical condition released me from other responsibilities and freed me to delve into my studies. Deeply engrossed in my search, I spent many hours day after day with my Bible, Strong’s Concordance, both Gesenius’ and Thayer’s Lexicons, and various dictionaries. I did not care what other people believed. I did not study church doctrine. I only thirsted to know what God had said and what God had done.
My spiritual upbringing had strong foundations. My father was a strict and conscientious Presbyterian elder. I was taught reformed Christianity according to the Westminster Confession and had memorized parts of the Westminster Catechism. My parents taught me that my highest Christian loyalty was absolute trust in the Bible as the word of God and above all other words. From that loyalty I have never swerved.
It was that loyal trust that guided my safari. The Biblical search of that time changed my life and strengthened my faith. I know by my study and my experience that every word, every law, every prophecy, every picture, every story in God’s Word draws us into the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. (2 Corinthians 4:6)
After two and a half years I was asked to write “in a nutshell” what I had discovered. I wrote a series of articles then that I called The Dawning of the Day of Atonement. I also wrote poems to express the message. I created visual art with the same theme. My book He Who Bleeds, A Systematic Theology of Intercession came out of that original series of articles.
One Sunday morning during the worship service, I saw a mental picture, a vision, of God in a form that expressed the heart of my studies. That vision was the beginning of my thought process that culminated three years later in the completion of Justice, A Two Sons Diptych. I created a graphite pencil portrait of that vision. I call the portrait Follow Me.